Dust In The Wind

dust in the wind

Gotta warn you, I’m writing this post with tears in my eyes right now so it’ll have less to do with fashion and more to do with my personal life. I’m pretty sure I’ll regret it in the morning and come back and edit (quite possibly), but I’m thinking writing this post out right now might help me a bit.

I’ve been having a really rough few weeks with my family. I’ve always been very close to them, but lately I just feel pretty invisible and worthless. There’s been a lot of conflict, not only with them, but within myself. I feel a bit lost and unsure of myself. A lot has changed, not sure if it’s for the better or for worse, but it’s kind of hard to deal with. Today was probably one of the worst days I’ve had in a long time, because of that, I’m making a lot of mistakes. When I make a lot of mistakes, I feel like crawling into a hole and hiding from the world, so I might do just that for a while.

nobody's perfect

I really don’t know what else to say. I was trying to practice more white on white pictures with this post, but I kind of gave up in the middle. I’ll try again another day. I think it’s time for bed.

Credits:
*Skin: FAKE :: Marie – NUDE [Milky] by Bonnie Forder
Eyelashes: MG – Eyelashes – Groomed – BLACK by Maxi Gossamer
*Hair: >TRUTH< Cynthia - ivory by Truth Hawks *Romper: coldLogic romper – mathis.snow (S) by coldLogic
Ring: Paper Couture Diamonds and Pearl Ring by Cora Lu
Nails: Candy Nail #FP006 Clear Glitter French 3color change by Peche Bury
*Poses: Exposeur by RubyStarlight Writer

13 thoughts on “Dust In The Wind

  1. ..If i could reach through here and hug you I would, and then tell you, its gonna be okay. Give it time. xo

    PS..GORGEOUS photo, to me one of your best.

  2. I’m sorry to hear you are struggling so much: families can be hard. I hope you feel better after your sleep and that today brings more clarity and is a good one!

    Your pics here are stunning – really caught my eye.

    Hugs xx

  3. Well, reading this right now I feel quite silly. I was just a bit upset last night, I’m feeling a lot better today. I guess pouring my heart out did kind of help. Thank you everyone for the hugs and kind words. <3

  4. NatashaAngelfire Resident says:

    My arms can’t reach you to give you a hug; however, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope you wake up to a brighter morning both mentally and spiritually.

    In truth, you inspire so many of us here. Your generous spirit and talent is a rare quality. Thank you for opening your heart to us.

    I’m not sure who said this, but I think it is true. “The light of friendship is like the light of phosphorus, seen when all around is dark.” You have many friends and supporters here, don’t be afraid to lift your head to see us lighting your corner of the world…we are here for you.

    hugs to you!

  5. You’re allowed to feel like this you know petal.

    When you feel low, consider this; you are surrounded by people who love you, care about you, admire you and will support you no matter what and the majority of them haven’t even met you in RL:)

    (Yes I’m talking about your legions of readers)

    You’re an inspiration Berry. We <3 you.

  6. Hi Berry… I am sorry to hear of you sadness. I know how overwhelming those feelings can be. I only know this for sure, you are a beautiful huan being. You have won great respect from your readers in Second Life. Without knowing the specific problems you are facing, I just want you to know there is always a way. There will always be brighter days and sleep helps. Do what you must do to take care of yourself first, Berry. Much love and care to you… Yordie

  7. If you need a break, escape to Canada. I left SL long ago, so I don’t have a virtual door anymore, but my real one is always open. <3

  8. zippidy.Serendipity says:

    Awww Cant pick our families like in SL, :-) shucks :-/ sends an semi-anonymous hug !

  9. Thank you so much everyone, really. I am overwhelmed with all the love I’ve received and feel so much better already.

    Zbornak, my heart just jumped right now seeing your name here. I miss you dearly. I hope you’re well. Just knowing you are still there and reading really warms my heart. I hope you don’t mind I am going to steal your email address you used for that comment and poke you there. I miss talking to you. Thank you for getting in touch. <3

  10. Strawberry, sometimes the only way to feel better is to vent. And actually you hardly vented at all :) No cuss words!! LOL. You share so much with us stalkers its nice that we can at least give some words of encouragement back to yew!
    Family can be hard at times. I myself have had to step back from some members for my own mental health. Listen to your gut and stay true to yourself.

    Forever a fan..
    Carmilla

  11. Unless you’ve changed something, I dunno what it is that you’d regret about this post. Maybe I’m biased because I’m pretty worthless and because I find you kinda intimidating (that’s a compliment, BTW) but it sounds to me like you just admitted to being.. human. That’s not bad, is it? I mean, it’s bad that you *feel* bad, but I don’t think you “should” be embarrassed by that.

    Anyways, you’re awesome.

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