Do you ever look in the mirror and wonder who that is that’s staring back at you? It happens to me a lot. Sometimes I don’t even recognize my own self. Now when I look at myself in the mirror, as I get older, I see more and more blemishes, bruises and scars, even if they are not physically there anymore. Sometimes it’s as if the internal and emotional abuse can be seen on the outside.
I also wish I had the same confidence when I looked at myself in the mirror that my avatar has right now as she looks at herself. Admittedly, I live vicariously through “Berry” inworld and plump up her butt, give her mesh breasts and the curves that I lack in real life. Sometimes I wonder if “Berry” is contributing to my negative view of my real self, or does that happen naturally as we get older? Do we begin to find more faults and not just accept and love ourselves automatically?
I’m not sure where I was going with this post to be honest, just sharing thoughts that have been popping into my head a lot recently. All this talk about proportions in my previous posts and then staring at both my virtual and real bodies, it just got to me. I guess it’s silly of me to compare my real self to an avatar whom I can change and perfect in any way I please.
I am happy and content and my life is full of love and I’m surrounded by supportive people, but there always seems to be an internal struggle within myself. But I assume, we all have that struggle and that’s just part of life? At least I hope that’s the case and it’s not just me.
On a lighter note, I did have a lot of fun trying to put my reflection on the mirror. I saw the mirror at this month’s Zodiac event for Cancer and I just knew I wanted to try and do a reflection picture. I took two images from both angles, front and back, and experimented making the front one look like a reflection on the mirror. It’s not perfect, but it was a good learning process. The mirror is from The Loft and one of my most favorite things at Zodiac this month. It’s such a beautiful piece. The tattoo is also at Zodiac and so well done from all angles. You can check out everything available at Zodiac on the Seraphim blog and then take the slurl and head down there.
*Skin: [:Tuli:] Sara / petal :: 09 by Tuli Asturias
Hair: tram C407 hair / brown (size40) by Moca Loup
*Tattoo: .:CoLL:. Guanshiyin ~ Upper Tattoo Layer by Guenevere Decuir (@ Zodiac Cancer)
Mirror + Pose: The Loft – Wrought Iron Mirror by Colleen Desmoulins (@ Zodiac Cancer)
*Mesh Hands + Feet: SLink by Siddean Munro
*Hands & Feet Appliers: Tuli Henna Appliers by Tuli Asturias