I wasn’t sure if I was going to blog about this or not, but I figured perhaps if I shared what I’m going through, it may help me heal.
My vacation was supposed to last till the 18th, but I ended up cutting it short and coming home early. The first part of my vacation was actually pretty wonderful. I did things I never did before (and never thought I would ever do) and froze my ass off whilst doing them. Then the last part of my vacation got a bit sour. The relationship I’ve been in for the past year ended, forever.
I’m still pretty numb and feel as if I’m just going through the motions. My eyes haven’t stopped watering for days and the pain in my heart is unrelenting. I really thought what I had found was going to last forever and this was the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with. How do you get over that? How do you forget and move on?
I’ve been trying to convince myself that I have so much in my life to be happy about and thankful for: my work, my family, my friends and more. Along with strong support from strangers around the world that I know through Second Life. But I guess sometimes you just need to be miserable until you get to the point where you can finally get over it.
So this is what I’m going through right now. I’m going to do my best to paint a fake smile on my face and just distract myself with work, pictures and blogging until I feel like myself again. But I know I’ll have my days where I will explode and ramble nonsense until I get whatever I need to off my chest, just excuse me if that happens.
In other less depressing news, I was requested by Kiana Writer (Founder and Director of MadPea Productions) to put myself up for auction for a good cause, so of course I could not refuse. This is supposed to be a date auction type thing, but I am probably going to be a very boring date these days so I’m offering my photography services for a single portrait instead. I will of course spend some time with the winner as well if they want to pick my brain about blogging, photography and such. But they will definitely get a portrait. All of the proceeds from the auction will go to Feed-a-Smile program, which helps feed 400 children daily in Kenya, and also provides education, medicine, food, shelter, and foster care. Ziki Questi has done an excellent job of blogging it, so click over to her post for all the details. This is the SLurl to the auction.
There will be no Monday Meme this week as I’m not really up for it. Hopefully by next week I’ll be more prepared and feel a bit more like myself. Thanks to all those that have reached out and offered their support. I really appreciate it. <3
*Skin: Glam Affair Sylvia by Aida Ewing (@ Collabor88)
*Eyes: IKON Promise Eyes by Ikon Innovia
*Hair: Truth Tyr by Truth Hawks
*Necklace: MANDALA valentine 2 by kikunosuke Eel (Details on flickr)